October 16th, 2005. That is the day my life turned around. That Sunday morning 14 years ago, I truly gave my heart to the Lord. I actually grew up in church and gave my heart to the Lord when I was 5 years old. I can't say that I was living for the Lord though. That Sunday morning 14 years ago was the day the heart change really happened. I remember that day so well. I was sitting maybe three rows back and I was weeping. The Lord had really convicted me on how I was treating others. You see, I was so full of pride. I thought I was better than everyone else. He really showed me that I was not showing His love at all. That day was the beginning of the true heart change.
He has done a lot of work in me since then. After that day I developed a hunger for the Word of God like never before. I can't stress enough how important it is to get in that secret place with Him everyday. It doesn't matter if it is in the morning, afternoon, or evening, you just need that alone time with Him. I can tell a difference in the days I don't spend that quiet time with Him. I compare this time to spending time with my best friend. You know those friends where you really don't want to go a day without at least talking to them? That is how it is with me and the Father. I don't want to go a day without spending time with Him and hearing from Him.
This past year has been the most accelerated and exponential growth I have experienced spiritually. I don't know if you have ever felt like "There has to be more" but I have felt that so many times and this year more than ever. I can say that this past year I have experienced more but I also know there is so much more. That hunger for more should truly never leave us. We will never experience the fullness of all that He has on this earth. I want to experience all that He has for me here and I am looking forward to the day I stand before Him. I honestly feel like I have only scratched the surface of what He has in store for me.
2018 started with a prayer asking the Lord for a mentor. I really longed to have someone who could speak into my life and hold me accountable. Well the Lord answered that prayer in October of 2018. This friendship could only be setup by the Father. I have never felt so connected to someone so quickly. She has opened my eyes to so many things of the Lord that I didn't know about. I have done things this past year that if you would have told me I would be doing I would have laughed. The Lord has completely shifted my focus to Him. Sometimes it's very confusing why I don't have the desire to do activities that I once enjoyed but it may just be for a season. Honestly, I have found what matters most and that's Jesus! He is the one my heart desires.
This past year has been hard but also amazing. Seeing the Lord's provision this last year has been amazing. He has brought dreams and desires out that had once been crushed and pushed down. He has given me many promises that I am looking forward to seeing come to pass. He is so faithful!
I have gone on this wonderful journey of healing this past year and I can finally say that fear no longer has a stronghold in my life. I have been set free! I'm not saying that those thoughts don't come but I have to choose everyday to not except those lies from the enemy. I have to say some days are much harder than others but I have the promise that through Him I am an over comer. We already have the victory! God is so good! I can say that I am really excited for this new year in Him. I am excited to go where ever He has me and do what ever He has me doing. His adventures are way more fun than anything I could dream up! 14 years is just the beginning!
Thank you for reading! If you would like to learn how you too can live with the Lord, please reach out! I would love to pray with you.
